Bam! What was that? A year gone by that's what.

If you know Leon, you can tell by his glassy eyes and lack of a big smile in this photo that he's starting to be sick. It was taken last week, just at the beginning of a big virus. Poor guy! He's feeling much better now, but there was at least a week of crying and moaning and flopping his head woefully on my shoulder because he was exhausted and couldn't sleep from pain or congestion or what have you. It was heart breaking not being able to just make him feel all better. The best I could do was console him as much as possible and clean his nose and dose him with baby tylenol. Little champ.

You know, usually I am hoochy coochying on the christmas-cheery type stuff at this time of the year. This year, not so much. With Leon being sick and the weather being icky and well, let's face it, being locked to my son's not very forgiving schedule, I have opted out of a lot of celebrating type behavior. I haven't even watched the Grinch or Charlie Brown Christmas or Christmas Story or Christmas Vacation. I haven't baked cookies or had cocktails. I haven't made cards or even bought any.

I did decorate my little tree and I did wrap presents, which I love doing. I think I like wrapping presents more than I like getting them!

It's been hard to do the usual holiday cheer because I'm not a very "roll with it" type mom. Some moms can just carry on with their lives and keep on trucking, but I must admit to my regular life being somewhat on hold while I do the mom job. I guess I like to focus on one thing at a time. It stresses me out to try to do too much at once. Mothering takes up most of my time and energy.

I'm guessing that I will chill out as Leon gets older and more independent. Probably next Christmas will be more fun as he will be interested. I bet after that, Christmas will be ten times more fun seeing it through his eyes. This year, I think he'll appreciate tearing up wrapping paper but that's about all he will really register.

At any rate, December is hurtling by at a blinding speed and then the year will wrap up and it will all begin anew and I'll be sitting around blinking, trying to figure out what the hell just happened.

Take a second to send Leon some good sleeping vibes would you? It's been a rough week sleep-wise for all of us. Snot, you are evil. You block the nose and awaketh the sleeping eye with thy mucous-y ill will. That's my old timey rant against snot.

I have a little time left before retiring to bed. Maybe I'll try to sneak in some sort of holiday moment. A sip of amaretto. I'd eat a chocolate if there was one in the house. (note to self: rectify the no chocolate in the house situation.) Maybe I'll just lay back and chill and try to gather my wits about me and just absorb a little more December before it runs away laughing into the winter sunset.